First mission!

I went on my first official mission the other night... I almost missed it because I was sleeping. >_> heh. Luckily, the Sith sent somebody to come and meet me. I'm kinda surprised I didn't get any sort of negative reaction from them. They all seemed to be in a good mood that night, which was a relief since I really didn't want to have to deal with scolding or anything like that. In fact, it almost seemed out-of-character for the Sith to be so... jovial. It kinda started to get on my nerves; we're Sith, are we not? We're supposed to be a band of badasses, right? Oh well. It isn't such a bad thing to goof around every now and then. There was one point when Teck (I think his name is Teck...) was going crazy; somehow they had brainwashed him into thinking he was a black man with a disturbingly lengthy... yeah. And had weird homosexual relations with another one of the Sith. After running around screaming, casting powers at the offending Sith, he came up to me and said, "I need to reaffirm my heterosexuality!" I was freaking out a little bit, since the entire situation was freaking me out (I was almost confused as he was... almost) and I didn't necessarily want to be a part of it. As he approached, I glared. Uh, no. You will NOT touch me. He got the message, and later on, he turned to me and said, "You are a very fine looking woman!" It made me laugh a bit. Although... I'm not sure how old he is, and I don't know if he realized that I'm only fifteen. Eh, it made me feel somewhat sexy, I guess. ;D

The mission was to construct and then reactivate an ancient Holocron... at least, I think that's what we were supposed to be doing. Something about getting things from the Jedi, like a saber and credits and blood and some other stuff I don't remember. I probably would've been more clear on the objective if I'd gotten up in time... Oh well. =P I would be late to my first mission.

During some time when the Sith were farting around doing practically nothing (mostly due to the fact that the Jedi were doing the exact same thing in their temple... hmph), Tak decided to go search for some stragglers and asked me to tag along, so I did. As fun as the Sith are... I wanted some action. Some.. not.. sexual action. They were very horny that night. But anyway.

We were at this really large building and Tak saw a group of Jedi approaching. He told me to stand by the door they'd be coming through, and he went around back. I almost got one of the Jedi, but I soon became overwhelmed and they stunned me. >_< The guy I almost killed blocked my Mindwipe, and I only had one Stun Block, so that's how that happened. I guess that's what I get for going after the leader of the bunch... I'll need to be more cautious in the future. Tak tried to surprise them by coming through the door after them, but he was found out. He put up a good fight... but... the worst part was when I watched them murder him right in front of my eyes. It was a strange feeling... that life could be taken away so easily, so simply. As if it took no effort. I'd never felt such disdain for the Jedi ever. And to think my parents support them... it just disgusts me. How can this be considered justice? I mean, I don't know Tak that well, and it's weird that he has a set of headphones around with him all the time, but he'd been my buddy for the night, and suddenly he was gone like a withered leaf in the breeze. In my stunned state, I was obviously helpless to go get help or anything... and the Jedi were going to just leave me there! I had no idea what I was gonna do... I half expected them to just kill me, too, but I guess I wasn't much of a threat; they just left me there, unable to move...

Thankfully, a couple of other Sith soon appeared, including the Dark Lady, and chased the stupid idiots off. One of them (the Sith, heh) was able to revive Tak, which was a huge relief to me. I've heard of the respawning thing, but I've heard weird things about it, like they come back with alterations to their personality, and the idea of it worries me. So I was glad that Tak didn't need to do that.

I can't remember too much of what happened after that; I think that's about the time they sent me on sentry duty, after the Stun had worn off. I dunno how long I sat at the entrance of that large building; may as well have been stunned. I threw some rocks. Made some shadow puppets. No Jedi showed up. Eventually I got a call from Tak telling me that the Jedi knew we were there and were coming for us. I began heading someplace else, attempting to stick to the shadows, but then another call came and told me that the mission had been called off. I was shocked, but headed back to the Sith temple anyway. I'm still not totally sure what happened... but I knew it couldn't be good.

Right now I'm just chillin' in the room. I haven't heard anything about that Holocron, so I'm guessing we weren't successful. No one's particularly eager to discuss it. So... I guess we'll just have to wait and see. Maybe it can still be built. All I know is that I'm not gonna say anything about it. Well, I might. I'm getting a bit anxious. It can't be THAT hard to assemble some old... whatever a Holocron is. I don't even know what it looks like! If it even has some physical form! Ah, oh well. I'll figure it out eventually, even if I have to do it myself.

In the comfort of my own independence.

SIGH OF RELIEF!! Guess what, galaxy?! I, Xylia Sterling, have FINALLY fleed the tyranny of my household!!!!!! I told them I'd do it, but would they listen? Nooo, of course not. Parents never understand... and you'd think they would, considering they used to be my age once upon a time... jeez, they must've been really boring or something as kids. They like, lost their sense of adventure. They lost their luster for life. It's depressing. I couldn't be a part of their fabricated environment anymore. I can't handle it. It's like they want to control everything I do... try and shape me into whatever little angel they want... well, they can't. And this proves it. I will be my own person. There's no stopping me.

I remember when I threatened them. They laughed. They laughed, like it was the funniest joke they'd ever heard. Oh, I was so pissed. If anything, that helped fuel my desire to GTFO. That was the night they wouldn't let me go with some friends to a pub they go to... it was Jannek's birthday, so why the crap wouldn't they let me go?? You know what their freakin reason was? "Those are the friends who smoke death sticks. We can't let you be influenced by them anymore." Um, EXCUSE ME??? They are my friends, not yours!!! And it's not like they can judge them like that! They don't know my friends like that! Even though those are the ones who get death sticks from their older siblings... they still shouldn't jump to conclusions when they don't even know them. It's just rude and disrespectful. So I finally lashed out at my parents, and they got what they had coming. I screamed at them. I told them I would run away and join the Sith if they didn't stop being so unfair all the time. And that's when they laughed. Patted me on the head and laughed their annoying little evil laughs, then told me to go clean my room or some crap like that. And you know what I did instead? I packed my stuff. This was the last straw. I refused to take it anymore.

I'd been thinking about joining the Sith for a while now. I've been trying to figure out the best way to get back at them for all the wrong they've done to me. They wanted a perfect little girl... well, too bad; they raised a future Sith Master, possibly one of the most powerful to have ever existed. Maybe then they'll be sorry. Yeah, they'll be real sorry when I come home wielding my scalding-hot, blood-red lightsaber and wreck utter hell upon everything. They'll be sorry when I'm the most powerful human being in the galaxy.

Right now, I'm at the Sith temple, chillin' in my dorm. I'm so eager to learn everything they have to teach me. I'll admit, I wasn't expecting this much hostility from both apprentices and masters alike... but I'm strong. I'll suck it up; I'm supposed to be a Sith someday. Sith don't have emotions, just desires. One of the first things I've learned is the ethic system of looking out for the betterment of yourself and the Sith... although I assume I need to look out for myself most of the time, which is what I'd be doing anyway... no one needs to tell me twice. I don't know any of the stories behind anyone else here, but I'm trying not to care too much; their purpose is of no concern to me, nor is it really any of my business. I learned that one fast, too: keep your nose in your own business. I tried to talk to a girl who lives in the same room as me, but she was pretty cold, so I'll just ignore her. There aren't many friendly faces here, but HELLOOOO! It's the Sith! They aren't infamous for being polite! Still, I kinda hope I can make at least one friend here. I do tend to get lonely... but no worries! Even if nobody likes me (which I doubt; I'm pretty cool, after all... I did run away from home to become a Sith!), I'm still determined to please the dark lady of the Sith and work my way up the ranks.

I think I was told I'll be the apprentice of a lady named Bellatrix Spencer. She's really pretty... she looks cool, too. Not sure how she manages to look that amazing with a baby-tumor goin' on, but she's rockin' it! I hope we get to be buddies! I haven't had a chance to formally talk to her yet, but I've seen her around. I'm not sure when we'll start training together, but I hope it's soon; I think I have a couple more regular trips around the block before we get into anything serious. I did recently got into my first saber battle, though... it was so exhilarating, the power! The saber in my hands was like nothing I'd ever felt before... so much potential, so much control over something so "great" as life. I don't understand: if it's so easily taken away, how can it be so terrific? It's so worthless... there is so much waste of it in the galaxy. Especially through Jedi... the "good guys" that everyone and their mom roots for. I don't know who they think they're helping, but because my parents support them, I am against them. I swear to be against anything that the Jedi are for!

Well, it's getting late, and I've got more training to do tomorrow. Ahhhh!! This is so exciting! Good night, galaxy!!