SIGH OF RELIEF!! Guess what, galaxy?! I, Xylia Sterling, have FINALLY fleed the tyranny of my household!!!!!! I told them I'd do it, but would they listen? Nooo, of course not. Parents never understand... and you'd think they would, considering they used to be my age once upon a time... jeez, they must've been really boring or something as kids. They like, lost their sense of adventure. They lost their luster for life. It's depressing. I couldn't be a part of their fabricated environment anymore. I can't handle it. It's like they want to control everything I do... try and shape me into whatever little angel they want... well, they can't. And this proves it. I will be my own person. There's no stopping me.
I remember when I threatened them. They laughed. They laughed, like it was the funniest joke they'd ever heard. Oh, I was so pissed. If anything, that helped fuel my desire to GTFO. That was the night they wouldn't let me go with some friends to a pub they go to... it was Jannek's birthday, so why the crap wouldn't they let me go?? You know what their freakin reason was? "Those are the friends who smoke death sticks. We can't let you be influenced by them anymore." Um, EXCUSE ME??? They are my friends, not yours!!! And it's not like they can judge them like that! They don't know my friends like that! Even though those are the ones who get death sticks from their older siblings... they still shouldn't jump to conclusions when they don't even know them. It's just rude and disrespectful. So I finally lashed out at my parents, and they got what they had coming. I screamed at them. I told them I would run away and join the Sith if they didn't stop being so unfair all the time. And that's when they laughed. Patted me on the head and laughed their annoying little evil laughs, then told me to go clean my room or some crap like that. And you know what I did instead? I packed my stuff. This was the last straw. I refused to take it anymore.
I'd been thinking about joining the Sith for a while now. I've been trying to figure out the best way to get back at them for all the wrong they've done to me. They wanted a perfect little girl... well, too bad; they raised a future Sith Master, possibly one of the most powerful to have ever existed. Maybe then they'll be sorry. Yeah, they'll be real sorry when I come home wielding my scalding-hot, blood-red lightsaber and wreck utter hell upon everything. They'll be sorry when I'm the most powerful human being in the galaxy.
Right now, I'm at the Sith temple, chillin' in my dorm. I'm so eager to learn everything they have to teach me. I'll admit, I wasn't expecting this much hostility from both apprentices and masters alike... but I'm strong. I'll suck it up; I'm supposed to be a Sith someday. Sith don't have emotions, just desires. One of the first things I've learned is the ethic system of looking out for the betterment of yourself and the Sith... although I assume I need to look out for myself most of the time, which is what I'd be doing anyway... no one needs to tell me twice. I don't know any of the stories behind anyone else here, but I'm trying not to care too much; their purpose is of no concern to me, nor is it really any of my business. I learned that one fast, too: keep your nose in your own business. I tried to talk to a girl who lives in the same room as me, but she was pretty cold, so I'll just ignore her. There aren't many friendly faces here, but HELLOOOO! It's the Sith! They aren't infamous for being polite! Still, I kinda hope I can make at least one friend here. I do tend to get lonely... but no worries! Even if nobody likes me (which I doubt; I'm pretty cool, after all... I did run away from home to become a Sith!), I'm still determined to please the dark lady of the Sith and work my way up the ranks.
I think I was told I'll be the apprentice of a lady named Bellatrix Spencer. She's really pretty... she looks cool, too. Not sure how she manages to look that amazing with a baby-tumor goin' on, but she's rockin' it! I hope we get to be buddies! I haven't had a chance to formally talk to her yet, but I've seen her around. I'm not sure when we'll start training together, but I hope it's soon; I think I have a couple more regular trips around the block before we get into anything serious. I did recently got into my first saber battle, though... it was so exhilarating, the power! The saber in my hands was like nothing I'd ever felt before... so much potential, so much control over something so "great" as life. I don't understand: if it's so easily taken away, how can it be so terrific? It's so worthless... there is so much waste of it in the galaxy. Especially through Jedi... the "good guys" that everyone and their mom roots for. I don't know who they think they're helping, but because my parents support them, I am against them. I swear to be against anything that the Jedi are for!
Well, it's getting late, and I've got more training to do tomorrow. Ahhhh!! This is so exciting! Good night, galaxy!!
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